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Thursday, November 17, 2005
no more "fuck you"s (at least not for a while)

i am typing this after having grown a little voice in my head (don't ask me what the hell that means...)
i just opened my eyes to something just now.

...i'm not angry...

...not anymore...

there's this sense of resignation and fatalism, yet at the same time coupled with...

(dare i say it..?)

not now. not yet.

all i know is i've found something i've been searching for for a loooooong time.

...peace...

peace with myself; a reconciliation with aspects of my person .

what brought this? i guess i simplified my equations and reduced things.

i went acoustic.

i've finally found people who'd support the things i do, not because i had something to give, but because i am who i am (they know who they are...)

i've found things i should actually finally be doing.

...and then there's this girl... (stole that line from Arthur, thank you)

she may not know, she may not see, she may not understand, she may not comprehend how much she actually affects me.

how she took the bitterness away, how she took all the anger away, how she stopped the bleeding, how she's made me want to be more than what i am and still retain myself in the process...

...how she's made me feel so good to be me...

she may not actually ever see....

...but it's all good...

no more "fuck you"s

...at least not for a while...

mauve angelus dreamt on* 9:28 AM

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Santino Joshua Garcia Torre

"it was all that i wanted, now i'm living without...it's where the water flows, it's where the wind blows..." OVERHAUL COMING UP...

something got caught.. errr? what?!?!?

Male, 21, Single

Zodiac Sign: Capricorn

Location: Philippines

Hometown: slumberland...

Schools:
University of St. La Salle-IS, University of the Philippines- Manila

Occupation: dreamer, sophisticated jologs

Companies:ignored industries

Affiliations: The Amazing Losers Organization (TALO!), team FS, i-squared,
Brickwall People, Superplan X

Hobbies and Interests: dreaming, sleeping

Favorite Books: the Holy Bible, the imitation of Christ, Bram Stoker's Dracula, Interview with the Vampire,
Eraserheads' Fruitcake, El Filibusterismo, Of Punks Poets and Poseurs, LotR,
The Purgatorio, The Inferno, V, The Final Conflict, The Vampire Lestat,
The Prophet, the perks of being a wallflower

Favorite Movies: reality bites, rockstar, star wars, kill bill, reservoir dogs, awww gawdammit! TARANTINO MOVIES IN GENERAL, (yes?!?), detroit rock city, wayne's world at siyempre Can this be Love? (ang umangal sisipain ko), Memoirs of a Geisha, Nasaan si Francis?

Favorite Music: i need a list!!, eraserheads (with ely), rivermaya (luma), mr. big (with either kotzen or gilbert), smashing pumpkins (with d'arcy), nirvana, foo fighters (basta anjan c dave grohl astig!), counting crows, urbandub, our lady peace