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Wednesday, November 09, 2005
superplan AXED

"gusto ko lang maranasang umibig
tamaan ni kupido
gusto ko lang maranasan ang langit
tumibok muli ang puso ko"

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this is definitely one of those days i should have stayed in bed...
superplan x is AXED. aborted indefinitely to be discarded to my realm of things that never should have been thought of.

don't get me wrong though.. superplan x didn't fail. it just didn't happen.
the fact of the matter is i didn't really think it would work: i just wanted to do it. i just wanted to get the chance to do it y'know...

to those in the know, i realize this might seem like a trivial thing. i mean, everyone else has bigger fish to fry than worry about some inane fool who wants to exorcise his demons by total humiliation...

..but, you have to understand,this was my narwhal, my whale shark, my loch ness monster...

days passed where all i could ever think about was how to make it better. nights lay in restless unsleep where visions of impending embarassment was imminent.

not getting to execute the plan just sucks!!

knowing it wasn't my fault and that i couldn't do anything about it is infuriating...!!!
knowing some person's arrogance ( and the "sheep" mentality of people i thought i knew)
caused this is... is... is... just so... STUPID!!!

you gullible, dumbass, ingratuitous, shitbrained, nerf-herding SHEEP!!!!!

(what actually hurts more is that you're one of them, i thought you were different, i thought my influence and your experiences would at least be apparent, but no. i'm actually mad at you, too)

haaah, i try to act all cool about it, but it's actually bothering me more than i would care to think about; more than i let on; more than i want it to bother me; more than i thought it would bother me.

"the show must go on", says the rational part of me. a side that HAS to prevail these days. "the show must go on", says many thespians.
"the show must go on", says this Jack Black persona a la "school of rock" inside my head.

the show must go on.

fuck you.

mauve angelus dreamt on* 7:11 PM

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Santino Joshua Garcia Torre

"it was all that i wanted, now i'm living without...it's where the water flows, it's where the wind blows..." OVERHAUL COMING UP...

something got caught.. errr? what?!?!?

Male, 21, Single

Zodiac Sign: Capricorn

Location: Philippines

Hometown: slumberland...

Schools:
University of St. La Salle-IS, University of the Philippines- Manila

Occupation: dreamer, sophisticated jologs

Companies:ignored industries

Affiliations: The Amazing Losers Organization (TALO!), team FS, i-squared,
Brickwall People, Superplan X

Hobbies and Interests: dreaming, sleeping

Favorite Books: the Holy Bible, the imitation of Christ, Bram Stoker's Dracula, Interview with the Vampire,
Eraserheads' Fruitcake, El Filibusterismo, Of Punks Poets and Poseurs, LotR,
The Purgatorio, The Inferno, V, The Final Conflict, The Vampire Lestat,
The Prophet, the perks of being a wallflower

Favorite Movies: reality bites, rockstar, star wars, kill bill, reservoir dogs, awww gawdammit! TARANTINO MOVIES IN GENERAL, (yes?!?), detroit rock city, wayne's world at siyempre Can this be Love? (ang umangal sisipain ko), Memoirs of a Geisha, Nasaan si Francis?

Favorite Music: i need a list!!, eraserheads (with ely), rivermaya (luma), mr. big (with either kotzen or gilbert), smashing pumpkins (with d'arcy), nirvana, foo fighters (basta anjan c dave grohl astig!), counting crows, urbandub, our lady peace