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"gusto ko lang maranasang umibig ソニーによる公式サイト。DVDの話題、グッズ、予告編ダウンロードがある
tamaan ni kupido
gusto ko lang maranasan ang langit
tumibok muli ang puso ko"
this is definitely one of those days i should have stayed in bed...
superplan x is AXED. aborted indefinitely to be discarded to my realm of things that never should have been thought of.
don't get me wrong though.. superplan x didn't fail. it just didn't happen.
the fact of the matter is i didn't really think it would work: i just wanted to do it. i just wanted to get the chance to do it y'know...
to those in the know, i realize this might seem like a trivial thing. i mean, everyone else has bigger fish to fry than worry about some inane fool who wants to exorcise his demons by total humiliation...
..but, you have to understand,this was my narwhal, my whale shark, my loch ness monster...
days passed where all i could ever think about was how to make it better. nights lay in restless unsleep where visions of impending embarassment was imminent.
not getting to execute the plan just sucks!!
knowing it wasn't my fault and that i couldn't do anything about it is infuriating...!!!
knowing some person's arrogance ( and the "sheep" mentality of people i thought i knew)
caused this is... is... is... just so... STUPID!!!
you gullible, dumbass, ingratuitous, shitbrained, nerf-herding SHEEP!!!!!
(what actually hurts more is that you're one of them, i thought you were different, i thought my influence and your experiences would at least be apparent, but no. i'm actually mad at you, too)
haaah, i try to act all cool about it, but it's actually bothering me more than i would care to think about; more than i let on; more than i want it to bother me; more than i thought it would bother me.
"the show must go on", says the rational part of me. a side that HAS to prevail these days. "the show must go on", says many thespians.
"the show must go on", says this Jack Black persona a la "school of rock" inside my head.
the show must go on.
fuck you.
mauve angelus dreamt on* 7:11 PM
i'm gonna put something here! wait!
