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Stillwater - All I Can Remember

Monday, January 19, 2009
all apologies

it's been many years..
(three to be exact)
since i've written anything of any substance...

and since i can't really say these things to the people concerned, the blog seems like a viable alternative. you don't have to read the next few lines, i just need to get some things out.

i've been thinking a lot these past few days. of what was, what is, what would've been and what will be... the past three (four?) years have been all about escapism. about denying. about hiding. about... forgetting. To keep me from regretting; to keep me from regressing. And it's worked for the most part. all that bitterness is gone... all the past grudges, all the past anger.. gone. what remains is a lot of ...missing...

which is what brings us to this: i'm sorry. to whoever reads this and feels even a tinge of slighting from me: READ: i'm sorry. i see now that it's immature to keep holding on to feelings that may at one time or more have angered me. it's time to let go of all of that anger. ALL of it.

and if any of you don't feel that forgiving... well, i guess i understand. i deserve it too. i've been... .... ... ... ...angry... at a lot of things until now. and anger leads to hate and hate leads to suffering.

ahhhh.... hmmmm... to post or not to post?

mauve angelus dreamt on* 4:48 AM

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Santino Joshua Garcia Torre

"it was all that i wanted, now i'm living without...it's where the water flows, it's where the wind blows..." OVERHAUL COMING UP...

something got caught.. errr? what?!?!?

Male, 21, Single

Zodiac Sign: Capricorn

Location: Philippines

Hometown: slumberland...

Schools:
University of St. La Salle-IS, University of the Philippines- Manila

Occupation: dreamer, sophisticated jologs

Companies:ignored industries

Affiliations: The Amazing Losers Organization (TALO!), team FS, i-squared,
Brickwall People, Superplan X

Hobbies and Interests: dreaming, sleeping

Favorite Books: the Holy Bible, the imitation of Christ, Bram Stoker's Dracula, Interview with the Vampire,
Eraserheads' Fruitcake, El Filibusterismo, Of Punks Poets and Poseurs, LotR,
The Purgatorio, The Inferno, V, The Final Conflict, The Vampire Lestat,
The Prophet, the perks of being a wallflower

Favorite Movies: reality bites, rockstar, star wars, kill bill, reservoir dogs, awww gawdammit! TARANTINO MOVIES IN GENERAL, (yes?!?), detroit rock city, wayne's world at siyempre Can this be Love? (ang umangal sisipain ko), Memoirs of a Geisha, Nasaan si Francis?

Favorite Music: i need a list!!, eraserheads (with ely), rivermaya (luma), mr. big (with either kotzen or gilbert), smashing pumpkins (with d'arcy), nirvana, foo fighters (basta anjan c dave grohl astig!), counting crows, urbandub, our lady peace